Why don’t I get mad anymore? Things I know should make me mad, don’t do it. I don’t know, I guess we can call it progress. I sure don’t want to call it depression.
I am so tired of fighting this fight to win my wife back. I keep seeing no positive results and the results I do see make me want to scream. I love this woman, but sometimes I wonder whether this fight is worth it. It’s a fight on so many levels: mental, spiritual, physical. I know she is worth it and most of the time this is all that keeps me going.
I don’t know where it will lead, this journey I am on. I definitely want it to lead to her. I will be ok if it doesn’t, but the reward is much better if she is at the end of the journey.