I didn’t post this yesterday. I was too tired and had a lot of things on my mind. I wonder if I my wife thinks I am mad at her. I AM NOT! I knew this was coming just was unprepared when it did. I reacted badly but handled it.
No real loss of temper yesterday, at least any unwarranted. Making progress. Hopefully this newfound control will hold. I need it to hold. Desire it to hold. Without it all that I work towards will be lost. I do not want to lose that.
We all need to have a rock of stability to cling to. Mine is my wife whether she likes that or not. If I ever lose myself, all I have to do is look at her and I regain some steadfastness. She anchors me in ways she does not dream.
Because of that anchor, I am willing to change. Because of that anchor, I will be faithful. Because of that anchor, I love her more than anything. She is a point on which I can rely.
I do not lightly say this. For too long I have not let her know how I feel, what she means to me. For too long she has felt like she is the one that must take action. For too long she has felt that I didn’t love her enough. It is time for that to change.